Sunday, July 20, 2014


Please don't learn to believe that you deserve to be punished and that you don't deserve to be treated with respect! My fear is that you will become used to being treated badly and you are not going to know what it is like to be treated well!

Love is not:

Controlling contact with family and friends.
Giving orders, making all the decisions not take your opinion or your feelings into consideration.
Worry about the reaction to things you say or do.
Blame you when things go wrong.
Lose your self-esteem, confidence and control.
To leave you if you don't obey.
Threatening to stop what you love to do if you don't obey.
Pressure you to do things you don't want to do.
Manipulate or quilt trip you by saying: 
"if you really loved me you would......"

Please don't question yourself by saying:
"What am I doing that is so wrong? I can't be that bad?"

During a traumatic event our logic is turned off and our nervous system automatically goes
into a survival mode Fight, Flight or Freeze response.
This is an animal instinct to feign death so an attacker will lose interest!
When psychological pain becomes to much to tolerate the mind distance 
itself from the experience by numbing the body and the psyche which is called

Personally for me abusive people are treated as nothing other than
oversized bacteria with destructive properties!

One thing you did not know about me is: I love when people are trying to bring me down.
I am proud of it because for me it confirms that I am above them :)

Monday, July 14, 2014

If you are reading this

Here we are...who have a way of getting on with our lives.
The reason that I cant stay don't have a thing to do with not loving you!
I understand that loving me shouldn't have to be this rough.
You are not the only one who feels like this world left you far behind.
I remember every time I said I never leave...but what I cant live with is memories of the way you used to be. I don't understand why you have to be angry all the time?

When all or tears have reached the sea a part of you will always live in me.
Way down deep inside my heart. Remember me when you are out walking..
Late at night when you are not sleeping. Please remember me.

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Pernicious lie

Assumptions are the most dangerous form of knowledge.
They are accepted without even knowing it! They enable you to buy a lie
without even knowing it, by buying all the assumptions.

I am still standing and I am going to keep standing. Right here as your lies unfold!
I know the truth is on my side and as time passes the truth will be known and the
liar will face the consequences of that truth.

Liars that intentionally lie to hurt others suffer major character flaws and personal insecurities which prevent them from admitting their actions were wrong! These kind of liars are individuals who typically have lost their way in life and suffer from issues related to anger and enjoy bringing pain to those they can hurt with their lies. Most individuals who lie intentionally to hurt others have a very difficult time coping with reality. The liars are most likely to be narcissists or sociopaths that are incapable of empathizing with others and in strong need of serious mental health intervention.

I feel sorry for them as what they have produced in the world will inevitably come back to them.
in time they too will suffer from their condition.


Thursday, June 26, 2014

Love Life

In spite of having tragedy in my life, I do all I can to share love with others.
When all is said and done and the dust has settled in, I ask myself....

Did I feel all the love I was given?
Did I give life my optimum?
Did I love all my maximum?

In solitude while dealing with the pain of losing my daughter.
I found something. Something I can not teach anyone else to find.
Something that came from inside me.That something is peach of mind.
The strength I have found there is unequaled to any other sense of
contentment I have ever known.
Being content with myself brings the inner peace to love life!

I truly believe that most of us are equipped to handle all our problems
no matter how severe they may seem at the moment! 

Love Always Anna Anka

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Not giving up

Saying goodbye doesn't mean anything. It's the time we spent together that matters,
not how we left it!

Goodbyes are not forever, Goodbyes are not the end.
They simply mean I'll miss you
Until we meet again.

I know you are feeling restless, like life is not on your side..
But I am not giving up I am not giving up on us!

It is not goodbye it's see you later

Love always Anna Anka

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Find yourself

In life there are some people  you are going to have to lose in order to find yourself.
I am sorry it had to be me :(
You must learn what life is now, not from me, but from life itself!
Remember the weak can never forgive... forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.
You have to take the good with the bad, smile when you are sad.
Always forgive but not forget, learn from your mistakes but never regret.
People don't change, things will go wrong...I want you to remember life goes on
within you and without you.
You must constantly ask yourself these questions:
Who am I around?
What are they doing to me?
What have they got me saying?
What do they have me thinking?
And most important, what do they have me becoming?
Then ask yourself the big question:
Is that OK?

Today's Wisdom:"We are born of love. Love is our mother"

Love always your family Mama, Ethan & Dada

Monday, June 9, 2014

Being your Mother

Means I have had the  opportunity to experience loving someone more than I love myself.
I have learned what  it's like to experience joy and pain through someone else's life.
It has brought me a few tears and heartaches at times, at the same time I have learned hope and patience. It has shown me the depth, strength and power of love.

You are a part of me and no matter what happened in the past or what the future holds.
You are someone I will always accept, forgive, appreciate, adore and love unconditionally!

Being your mother means that I have been given one of life's greatest gifts: YOU 

I am leaving for Paris tomorrow to film a TV Show I will miss you tremendously and will bring
something back to give to you one day when you are ready.

Big kisses and hugs your family
We miss you and love you always